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Well, I’m going to do the usual thing and start by saying it’s been a really long time since I’ve blogged. I’ve just got all this stuff going on and feel the need to sit down and get it out. This is probably going to be kind of long because I’m going to have to tell you where I’ve come from in order for you to understand where I’m at and where I’m going.

Right after Christmas 2007 is when I decided I’m ready to learn to exercise and to lose weight. I worked the front desk at a hotel so I was always busy moving around at work when I added eating right and exerise to that I started losing weight pretty quickly (I was down 17 lbs by Feb. 22). Then at work things started going down hill so I found a job at a different hotel (in April) but I wasn’t standing at the front desk I was instead sitting in front of a computer for 8 hours. By not being so active I gained about half my weight back. This new job was stressful for me to it was complicated, things had to be done just right or billing for 20 to 200 people could get messed up! I always had the sales dept coming to me needing some kind of urgent job done. It was just not what I wanted to be doing. Then here lately at home my husband has been really moody and nagging, my daughter has gotten where she doesn’t want to do what she’s told and she’s wanting to be mouthy. So when you roll all these things together the job, husband, kid, can’t forget about my alcoholic mom and step dad who’s divorcing and has managed to put me in the middle, we’ll I’ve been pretty stressed out and depressed lately. I got to the point where I’ve just quit exercising, I eat like a fat girl, and I sometimes just sit and cry.  Don’t worry it is starting to get better at least at work anyway. I recently got a promotion, I know that sounds like it would be more stressful but it’s not. I’m a front desk supervisor (MOD) now. So I’m back at the front desk doing what I know and love. I’m not sitting on my butt for 8 hours (no offense to anyone who does, it’s just not for me), I can’t just sit and eat anytime I want. So I’m happier at work and this has helped me to stop eating like a fat girl and while I haven’t started exercising just yet I plan to get up and get back into it tomorrow morning. Back to doing my walking and crunches, squats, push ups. I CAN’T WAIT!!!  My days off at home are still pretty stressful, I guess I’m going to have to learn to deal with it, it is after all only 2 days a week I’m home all day. Maybe by exercising while I’m home it will help relieve some of the stress I feel when I’m there.

Right now in the hotel industry business is slow so I’m usually working the desk by myself which means I can’t take a lunch or break. So I would appreciate it if anyone might have some suggestions for some healthy meals I can take to work for dinner that is low fat / healthy, does not need to be refrigerated, or heated.

I am a member of the Heartbreakers team, and I just want to thank all my wonderful buddies for accepting me back after I was gone for so long dealing with this depression.

Well, that’s it for now, you know where I’ve been, where I’m at, and even where I’m going on this roller coaster called life. Thanks for reading my blog and for any dinner suggestions you may be able to give me! Have a wonderful 2009 I know I plan to! (at least I look forward to going to work now)

So today I was getting ready for work and thinking about what to have for breakfast, seems pretty normal right? Well it’s not, because you see I’m not only thinking about what to have for breakfast at home but I’m also wondering what I can eat on my way to work (which is only about an hour or so after breakfast).  Here’s my theory, I binge eat in the morning I eat a large breakfast (usually cereal and toast or waffles with sugar free syrup, once in a great while eggs and toast) and then I eat a sandwich on my way to work because I know it’s going to be hours before I get time to take a lunch at work and I don’t want to get hungry. I’m not hungry when I’m eating the sandwich while driving I’m just eating so I don’t get hungry and I’m pretty sure this is packing the pounds on me heavy duty! I need some suggestions, how can I break this horrible habit? I think I’ve made the first step by realizing what I’m doing but now I have to take the hard step and change it. Wish me luck I’m going to need it!

since I’ve signed on to this website, it’s been to long since I exercised, and it’s been to long since I’ve blogged. Tonight I feel the need to blog and restart this uphill journey and I’m asking for help.  In April I started a new job and with the change in my schedule I found it hard to find time to exercise and I basically stopped. Then I tried to start back again an I’d exercise about once or twice a week. I’ve gained back almost all of the weight I’d lost. I was feeling so good and looking so much better too. I originally started exercising to lose weight due to health issues I have, when I was exercising I was feeling soooo good and I wasn’t having any problems with my health. Well, last Saturday I had a flare up and I was so sick and I’m still not back to feeling 100%. This has reminded me of why I started exercising and I’ve made up my mind that I have to start again. I need help, I need someone who I can talk to and count on for support. I love to eat and it’s hard to tell myself not to have that second plate, or to order the healthy selection instead of the tastier selection but I know I can do it. If you are someone like me who needs a good buddy to support you and hold you accountable please add me as a buddy and I’ll be there for you!

I’ve been with this new healthy life style for almost two months now so why is it getting harder instead of easier?? I just don’t understand this. I’m still struggling with portion control and self control. I drink water before dinner and during dinner I’m full after I have one plate, (which happens to be a salad plate instead of dinner plate) I’ll drink more water but I’ll still go back for more food even though I’m not hungry! I don’t understand why I do this, it’s like I’m setting myself up for failure. Do I need therapy?? I’ve been losing weight I can see that. I went shopping today and bought new tops for a trip I’m going on next week and bought a large instead of extra large. I even set a new goal for myself while I was there, I saw the cutest sun dresses but they were of course for “skinny ladies”, I want to fit into one of those dresses this summer!!! To meet this goal I’m going to have to learn to control myself when it comes to eating! Does anyone else have these kinds of issues or is it just me? I would love to hear any suggestions / advice you can offer me. I keep telling myself  “I WILL NOT GIVE UP ON THIS!”

Thanks for reading and for any tips you have for me.

When I decided to start this new life style to lose weight and be healthy I set a couple of goals for myself (which I didn’t really expect to accomplish), actually I think that maybe they’re more like challenges. #1 I wanted to exercise Monday - Saturday and take Sundays off. That goal is accomplished except I exercise everyday I only take a day off if I’m really sick. Some days I do more than others but I do something everyday. #2 I wanted to stop eating dinner so late. I usually work 3 - 11 so I’d get home and eat this big plate of food with my husband. I no longer eat after 8 pm! that goal is accomplished. So, I’ve decided to set another one for myself (I have to be challenged) So I’ve decided to eat smaller portions. This one is hard I just started it yesterday, so far I’m doing ok with it I just have to tell myself that I don’t want that second plate of food and I also use a salad plate instead of a dinner plate. Now with those two goals accomplished I am having to constantly pull my pants up at work, my diabetes is under control for the first time in the 8 or 9 years I’ve had it, and today I was able to tighten my belt up a notch! The scale hasn’t moved in a week or so but I can see more muscle on my body now and I’m obvioulsy losing inches. I just measured myself for the first time on February 1st and I’ll measure again on March 1st (seems like forever!) But I just have to say that even though the scale isn’t moving as fast as I’d like I’m still seeing a lot of really awesome changes not only in the way I look but also the way I think about, and react to food, and the way I feel! For the first time in my life I’m actually thinking “hey, this weightloss thing might actually be doable!” (with the support of my buddies and team of course!)

Thanks for reading and I hope you all are having wonderful success with your goals! 

Hey everyone! I was wondering if anyone has any suggestions for a good scale? I’m not sure that mine is working right. On Monday when I weighed it said 193 I was so happy because that was 14 pounds lost. But now when I weigh it just bounces between 196 and 198 not knowing where to stop (I’m also wondering if maybe it just needs a new battery) I know I haven’t gained 4 to 5 pounds back because I haven’t done anything different than I did the past few weeks. So now I’m wondering did I actually lose 14 pounds or was the scale wrong on Monday? I really need to get a tape measure and track inches because my work clothes are huge! I can almost fit in medium shirt from an XL! The medium is just too tight across the chest but ok everywhere else so I know I’m losing I just don’t know how much. I’m so confused!

Today was weigh in day for our team on weightlossbuddy.com and so far I’m down 14 pounds. I’m happy about that but the only change I see is when I look at the scale. I don’t see any changes when I look into the mirror. My husband says “I think you look great” he also said that before I lost the 14 pounds. Last week when I had lost 9 pounds my mom said “are you sure your scale is right?” well thanks a lot mom.  I just thought that 14 pounds lost would be more noticeable. On Saturday I seen some family members who I hadn’t seen since Christmas and not one of them said I looked like I was losing weight and they knew I was dieting. I dunno I guess I’m just having a pity party for myself but the fact that I don’t see the loss is just very discouraging. I haven’t been measureing to keep track of inches so maybe I should start doing that but then if those numbers don’t change I’m gonna be really depressed.

Hi everyone! I’m new to this site and this is my first blog. I’m at work and I’ve been just zipping around cleaning and stocking things when it occured to me that 3 weeks ago I never had this kind of energy! Every since I joined a team on another weightloss website they’ve really been helping me stay motivated! (you wonderful ladies know who you are!) and now I’m meeting new buddies on this site to and it’s just awesome to see how so many people have come together to help each other through something so difficult. But anyway since I joined the team I’ve been really watching what I eat, stopped late night eating, and started exercising every morning except Sunday! I’ve already lost a couple of pounds nothing major but I can already see my stomach getting smaller from eating less and exercising and I feel great! I am so excited about all this! I have never been so motivated to lose weight before, this time I’m really gonna do it! I would like to thank all my buddies for your support and encouragement and if you need me then know I’m here for you!